I have lost count of how many times I have thought to myself, "There is no way... How is that going to be possible?"
Well as I review the initial budget I created for the Clinic and find things that were supposed to be double the initial amount I anticipated or things I forgot to include, I see the number go higher and higher. I cannot help to add another tally mark to ^that count.
But as these amazon boxes keep showing up with donated medications and supplies in them, I am reminded that God can move mountains. So if this is His will, He will provide.
That is the thing about faith. It requires you to move and trust God will place each step under your foot as you go. But you have to move.
Have I ever told you about the time I ran straight into a glass window before? Yup. One of the most embarrassing moment of my life. I was on a cruise with my best friend and the wind at the front of the ship was perfect for impersonating Michael Jackson moves.
Well after we were done, I turned around and ran full speed towards what I thought was a door- not remembering the door was actually to my left and straight ahead was a glass window that looked like a door.
It would not have been so bad if I could have been completely mortified alone, but nope. I look to my left and see a huge group of kids our age sitting around right there who saw every moment.
As I wrote in yesterday's video post: Things are about to get raw as we continue forward in this Clinic development journey. I am moving forward in faith not knowing if doors will continue to open or if I will smack face first into a closed door. Because now you know:
I know exactly how that feels. Literally.
You would think I would get everything established and then share the details with everyone, right? That is the safe route.
I really feel like God is calling me to lay it all out there (again not knowing what the outcome will be), but understanding the potential in people seeing an average person like myself setting up something that is seemingly impossible.
Because how awesome would it be if this Philippines clinic is just the start of others gaining the courage to implement the same thing in their home town around the world?
Do I think this journey is going to be a neatly arranged row of open doors to walk through? No. Am I going to smack head first into a ton of door-looking-glass-windows? You bet cha. What if, at the end of it all, I end up at one huge locked closed door?
I am going to trust God will open a window instead and rest in the uncertainty until God reveals the true reason He set me on this journey.